Thursday, April 19, 2007

Fallout

it has been a busy life for me
but now i will reflect on the past three or four days.

sunday, monday, tuesday, and the first hour of wedesday were spent on a choir trip.
it was lots of fun.
i made three new friends
starfish, who is a senior and is someone i've looked up to
kerri, a newer girl who just joined like a week ago
jere-bear, the given-up angel's friend
and i went to universal.

then the day after we got back
i went to a concert.
my chemical romance.
best night of my life.

music is not about haircuts
or how much money you make
or how indie your band is
or anything like that.

music is about a teenage girl jumping
all over everyone else's feet
(especially when the singer screams
jump fuckers!)
and singing along every word
and being fifteen feet away from her
biggest role models.

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Interlude

asked out my angel
in a note.
he called me around four-it's nine now
and it sounded urgent.
unsure if this is good or bad.
praying for good.

oh my god i can't believe i went through with it.

i swear my heart rate is skyrocketing.

Sunday, April 1, 2007

Lovesong For A Memory

so i go back to school tomorrow-
spring break's been fabulous.

spoken with the rocket a lot
went to the beach alone
and with the muse.

got pulled over by police.

began my studies on alfred hitchcock
for an english project.

plotting with my guy best friend (not the angels mind)
it's devious, it's stupid, it's supposed to keep his ex off him.

i am going to ask my given-up angel out
on tuesday.
through a letter that he probably will lose
and forget.

whatever words i say i will always love you-lovesong by the cure

Monday, March 26, 2007

Tedium

spring break so far-
i cleaned my room for two days
haven't left my house once
slept in until eleven three days
watched The Birds
and My Big Fat Greek Wedding
Psycho is still unwatched.

nowhere to go, really.

a girl i am starting to get to know-
i'll call her rocket
because that's what we discussed on the phone
for one and almost a half hours
last night.

terrified tomorrow
for the lines on my thigh
(despite heavy foundation and concealer)
are visible
and my mother is taking me
to shop for a swimsuit.

maybe i can get away
with just a top
and shorts over the bottom from
last year.

not like i've grown much.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Taking Off

living and trying to breathe.
exams rolled by
and i'm trying to live
in a city that's too
small for me.

my life now consists of two things:
poetry and music.
this i don't mind,
but there's no people in between.

still suffering with a hopeless chocolate addiction
but what's new?

got an okay in choir competition last friday,
barely scraped into the next level.

saint patrick's day was fabulous
not to mention that i spent the whole day
with a certain blonde angel
who has a thing for his ex-girlfriend.
anatomy of a high school drama.

still counting days
until april eighteenth.

i recently recieved a comment (see Invisible)
from a creator whose work i admire.
a public thank-you to miss calan.
i wore pink striped socks today.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Eyes of Crystal

face it.
i am head over heels in like
with a boy i consider
my brother.
choir district is
tomorrow
and some haven't
memorized music.
saint patrick's day
is saturday
and i am dancing
everywhere.

one performance requires
shorts.
i can't wear shorts
due to a previous
episode of my life
(see anything involving lines)
if i explain why i can't
it's a one-way trip
to mr.therapy,
if some show it's
still a ticket.
catch-22.

i can't give up
my blonde
angel.

Friday, February 23, 2007

We Can Only Hope|My Music and About It

the given-up angel called me last night-
but his ex-girlfriend was on the waiting line
and he hung up on me to talk to her.

he never called back. i spent
last night waiting by the
phone.

my eating plan is not going well.
i am seeing no improvement
and whenever i can help i'm
off buying chocolate.

my parents are always angry
with me.

"you need to eat."

i'm currently on restriction
because i skipped lunch for
a week.

but i'll keep going with this.
i need to get all of this excess
skin off me.
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a list of the artists i listen to
and why i do so
and a favorite song
by them.
not all the artists.

afi-they're a solid band with a lead singer who i admire not just as a lyricist and a musician, but as a person. all of the playing is expert as the band has been around since the 1990s. curiously when i was born.
listen for-kiss and control off of decemberunderground

aiden-an excellent blend of styles (namely punk) with lyrics that are good (but in my humble opinion incorporate the word 'die' a little too often-anyways, who am i to complain?) and whose tunes are catchy.
listen for-die romantic off of nightmare anatomy

alesana-a wonderful hardcore band. you'll like it more if you're into screamy phowarrgh. interesting twist-incorporates the greek myth of icarus, a favorite of mine.
listen for-congratulations, i hate you off of on frail wings of vanity and wax

armor for sleep-generic sounding rock band. the albums tell a story which is good. ths music is great as a background soundtrack for when you work on other things.
listen for-kind of perfect off of dream to make believe

boys like girls-they call themselves emo, but their music sounds much more pop-rock to me. the next fall out boy in my opinion, but hey, i can say i knew them when. great sound, only downside is that their title is also the extent of their subject matter.
listen f0r-dance hall drug off the self-titled album

chiodos-great vocals for another otherwise normal band. very interesting lyrics, some mythology here too.
listen for-the acoustic of lindsay quit lollygagging off of all's well that ends well

escape the fate-bang smash in your face hello there my name is escape the fate. good stuff right there, very original. they use a cello!
listen for-the day i left the womb off the self-titled album

evanecence-how i got into music. very accessible, with a host of great music. all the not-as-good ones get overplayed.
listen for-lacrymosa off the open door

fall out boy-don't care for their normal stuff, but the acoustic songs are delicious. for example, nobody puts baby in the corner. they ruined it when they plugged it in, but the acoustic b-side is heaven.
listen for-nobody puts baby in the corner off my heart will always be on the b-side of things

flyleaf-an acidic band with absolutely wicked femme vocals. christian too, so no cussing and lots of fun.
listen for-so i thought off the self-titled album

kill hannah-a little electronic, a little emo, and a whole lotta fun. femaleish vocals with sleek lyrics and awesome talent.
listen for-unwanted off for never and never

my chemical romance-i love this band, despite how people say that it's not 'genuine'. i believe in music and if you're sincere then it's belief in being. anyway, another bunch of artists who are not merely great writers and musicians, but great people.
listen for-desert song off life on the murder scene

underoath-brash, loud, and a christian band to boot. what's not to like?
listen for-some will seek forgiveness, others escape off they're only chasing safety

the used-another band that's sincere. lyrics are just the right amount of screwed up, and these guys take technical adventrousness to a whole new level.
listen for-poetic tragedy off of a box full of sharp objects