Complicate Condition

so i am officially willy's girlfriend.
and i intend to break things off with david
but i can't.
he's done nothing to deserve it
but me finding someone else
who's better for me.

however, willy is gone to tennessee for ten days.
what he doesn't know might not hurt him
but i'm not that dishonest.

babysitting kids for cash.
friday night and tonight.
it's pleasant, lots of fun.

warped tour here i come!

Rifted

david

willy

18

15

atlanta

here

down for
summer

to stay

fling

love

ephermal

lasting

connected
through
me

and i am dating both.

its not been a year since i was last single
and i'm glad.
often seeing nina
going to church again, strangely
enough.
seeing fireflies doesn't hurt anymore.
i have willy's love to guide me,
edward to my bella.
and this day,
celebrated as the birth of our country
i mark as the emergence
of my independence.

earning cash for warped tour.
merch booths, tickets, etc.
i want to go so much.

going out with willy tomorrow
to see a horror flick.
i'm scared
but not of the movie.

up all night
as radio waves
transcend the miles
between us.
and if i think
hard enough
i can imagine you
next to me.

Endorphin the Chemical Messiah

went to the mall
with a girl and
her boyfriend.

it reminded me so much
of the firefly and demon.

but i got a shirt
and it was a lot
more fun than those
outings.

i saw the starfish
and said a fleeting
hello.

the first time i've been out
in how long?

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Rebirth

so this week was church camp.
i reconnected with my friends in alabama.
and even now i miss them.

rededicated myself to god.
it's strange to come home.

but the minute i walked in the door
i flipped on my music
and danced to my favorite song.

some things change.
even more things stay the same.

also found a new love interest
as i'm tired of lusting after
an angel who can't see me.

Restoration

have you ever
taken your stereo
into a bath?
not put it in the tub,
just played it loudly.

listening to music
with your ears underwater
is a fascination of mine.

the bass is accentuated
and the words suddenly
mean less.

try it.
you'll understand.

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so last night was my second
dance recital.

the high point of it for me
was watching my
given-up angel
sleep.

some people are ugly and grotesque when
they rest.

he is positively seraphic.

and his hands twitch, which is an endearing habit.

that moment was definitely intimate.
not in a sexual way, but it melted
my heart.

Brand New Heart

so yesterday
was my first local
'show'.

went with nina.

it was wonderful.

a bunch of choirkids were there
and two were singers in bands.
it was fun to see my friends on stage
having fun
and my friends not on stage
beating the crap out of each other.

the starfish sang
and it melted my heart.

what a wonderful first day of summer.