Mourning Light

last post of the old year.
almost sad, isn't it?
saying goodbye to someone
you barely knew.

i sewed a bear yesterday
and wrote a song.

Forever Falling

haven't written in a while
due to real life.

i was born during the dead days
days when boundaries between now and next
are said to be the thinnest

don't call me mystic
but i place a little stock
in such rumors.

this day and age
needs magic.

i'm unsure if today, yesterday, or tomorrow
is childermass.
the unluckiest day of the year.

or is the mirror broken?

called the blonde angel
who shares my age exactly.
he wouldn't take me
anywhere on account
of his parents beign away
and him going out with his friends.

it's no secret he asked her
because he loves her.
not me.
her.

Break My Wings For Me Dear, They'll Match The Heart You Left Me With

today was a day of mixing
everyone with presents.

it was just good to have
camadrie and happiness.

my present isn't here yet.
oh well.

Apex

this is the excitement
unfolding at its last
it is all downhill from here.

the carols fade away,
the decorations are put away
kindness goes away.

Anticipating Anticipation

december 23 got screwed over.
everyone's all 'christmas eve tomorrow
get today over with'.

didn't bake today.

went and watched christmas lights
and/or aunt and uncle's pda fest.

had ice cream
was too cold.

Angel Tears Staining The Living Room Rug

sewed today.
two dolls
one likeness of myself.

the insanity begins tomorrow
baking cookies.
in the kitchen i have
a very black and very crispy thumb.

This Is The Nightmare, It's All We'll Ever Need

staying the night at grandmother's
so the parents can have an anneversairy.

had the muse and an old friend
over last night.
told the muse of lines
and worked on getting
back into the pool.