Darling, Will You Wish Me Away

choir concert tonight.
the.

big.

one.

and my throat closed up and i choked on innocence
when my dad walked in and smiled at me.

he wasn't supposed to come.
care.
see me.

but he did.
i was reminded of how young i am.

and during our final song
andy dressed as santa claus
and hammed it up.

we couldn't finish.
it was unexpected.
it was bliss.

the had her boyfriend today...
gorgeous.
reminded me of the first angel
(who has a girlfriend, as i learned.
why do these things happen to me?)
but he's the's
and seventeen.

seventeen is bigger than thirteen.

i got a present
(reused from a dance recital)
but it was all good.
i didn't need one.