If You Told Me You Loved Me I'd Stop Drawing Razorblades

i love yard work.
raked the lawn today, much fun.

dad gave me advice and we discussed
his falling out with my aunt mary
and how if i ever have children
i'll love them and forgive them
and that he loves me.

presents are piling beneath the tree.
i want to open just one.
excitement kills me happy.

finished my three weeks endeavor of a book.
depressed me so i drown my sorrows
in chai tea and more books.

went to the mall with my father
and bought shoes
two sizes too large on accident.
also purble nail polish
and a afi cd.

i prefer cds to any other method
of music.
they are tangible and have more
emotional value than a simple
icon.